I love my workplace..!!Really??

I Quit

Niko — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 02:42:17 +0000

Finally the day has come for which I have been waiting from such a long time.9th Oct 2009,the day I resigned from my organization. It was a hard decision to make, hold on a sec..not hard coz I was thinking about quitting or not but hard as to how should I explode the bomb that hits them really hard

I came to the office all prepared, was a bit nervous and wanted to dominate the entire session. In our company, generally its a good practice to discuss this thing with the manager first, let him know or in a way give him a chance to fool u again in the name of doing something stupid. But anyways , I was prepared. The wait was killing me. Oh..BTW, my PM never comes before 11-11:30. Yeah, he’s the boss. But he believes in living in the aura of a deity. He thinks he is “GOD” and he can mock anyone and everyone, can come to office any time, and can leave any time as well.

So I was just dying to see that crying look on his face when I tell him ..”I QUIT”.The moment came..the patience paid of, as soon as he entered the floor, I gave him a wicked smile. I was confident and flying high. It was my day, where no body can say anything that can bend my mind and make me think again.Starting today, I was going to be free from everything, no body can force me for anything, not for night stays , not for Saturdays and not for nething that I don’t want to do.

I went to his cubicle and wished him and asked can we have a meeting.He got the idea that something is fishy, he said sit down. I insisted on going to the meeting room. Those ten steps to the meeting room, I felt like the meeting room is my Arena and I am the GLADIATOR, and no matter what in a few minutes this so called GOD is gonna take the Walk of shame.

We entered the meeting room and he asked what happened? I said..”I QUIT!”.He was shocked. His eyes stunned,. It felt like a bomb has exploded and he was in the center of explosion. For a few minutes , he started asking stupid and obvious questions, like “ru not happy?”etc .He tried admitting the things he never admitted for months. Now I could hear him say:
1)Yes I know there is workload and pressure.
2)I know we have to work hard and come on weekends and sometimes on other holidays as well
3)We don’t give leaves at all, n even if we do you have to come twice as many Saturdays.

At that time, I realized no matter what you do, but the real feelings come out only when your “resources” resign.

But then he started saying correctional things like You can go on a holiday, take as much as you want. pack your bag , go rite away, we’ll take care of the work n bla bla bla. I was hardly listening. But I insisted I need to be relieved in 1 month, and then he figured out everything. He took the charge..he was the same mean guy. He said a big NO. He knew I wanted it, but at the same time he insisted on not to resign. We had this discussion for around an hour. But it was a complete waste of time. He don’t got what he wanted and I don’t got what I wanted but at least I just bashed all my anger on to him.

I finally said,”Okay..I’ll think about it”. But I need not think , I exactly knew what my next step was.I went to the HR, thrashed the PM and APM, told her how bad I feel working here. Mental harassment is wat they offer u as a bonus.
She told me to start the process if I want to by dropping the mail.

I waited for the time to go back home. I dropped the mail at 11:45 PM, just short of the next day, saving one day from my sentence. I finally did it. I was in the “Notice Period” category. Gosh, It felt so great, no accountability or responsibility, I felt like I am relieved of all the tensions, just need to focus on my self now and have fun. Yes Have Fun in the office timings :p

I was feeling at peace now. A stability came in. I was at rest finally after such a long time. I went to bed and slept waiting to see the reactions tomorrow but I sure made a bad night for the superiors. People sitting at onsite, got to know that I have resigned and calls started calling in India from the moment I entered a formal resignation into the system. So, Tomorrow was gonna be a difficult day and I had to answer everyone why I did it.

Fw: Please Take Care

Niko — Fri, 25 Sep 2009 18:58:40 +0000

U guys might be thinking wat am I writing here. But its nothing serious. Its the subject of mails that I receive in office when Daddy’s little gal tries to do something but couldn’t really understand wat was supposed to be done.

The point that I don’t like here is, she gives u orders as if she’s the BOSS. May be she is , but who gives a damn about her. I don’t even feel like talking to her.

As soon as she gets a bug, she manages some time and looks into it. She tries hard, but when she doesn’t really gets wat is to be done, she Sends a mail “Fw: Please Take Care” as if I am the one who’s gonna do everything.

The funny part is, when in meetings the issues are discussed while every body is seriously listening and mourning the project statuses, I observer her face, how dull and confident she is at that time, she kina gets crazy look into her eyes. But the moment I see that cray look, I see danger for myself written all over.

She’ll jus pretend to do the task, and as soon as we r out, I’ll be the one whos gonna pay for those confident lookin eyes. Now I actually where the confidence comes from :p

But it’s expected frm Daddy’s lil gal, the soul of d team :p

Jus hope somebody takes care of this stupid crap and stop this tremendous and continue f****** with my mind.

Wat’s the Plan..

Niko — Fri, 25 Sep 2009 18:52:52 +0000

Hmmm… Plan word sounds very professional and I am sure while using it some people feel that this is y they were born; just to ask others ‘Wat’s the Plan Boss??’. I just hate this. I really never have a plan. I do each and everything based on my intuition and the situation of course.

Daddy thinks that he’s a big shot when it comes to planning but the fact is, he knows nothing and planning is also one of the things that go beyond his little brain which is just focussed on how to make people working on weekends.

Every Thursday our team has to be prepared with a plan. The leads are the one who have to initiate and share the Plan with Daddy. Then daddy will comment on the plan making it sound so relaxed and lazy and at the same time pretending as if the project is going to be scraped if the team doesn’t shows up on weekends.

And there he is; once he tells the leads, its the Lead’s responsibility to get abused from the members of the team whom he’s calling on weekends. And people come and Daddy remains F9 and will tell u ‘ I am fine(as long as some1′s coming on weekends)’.

And the biggest problem is that this cycle is ever lasting and it never stops. Every weekend at least one day(Sat/Sun), you have to come. The company gives u 2 offs in a week but its been reduced to 1 – courtesy Daddy.

If u take a leave, you’ll have to come on both days Sat n Sun to compensate. I don’t really understand that if that’s the case then Y company offers us leaves.

These are some very strange things about “My Dear Team”…and I don’t know how I am surviving there?????????????????????

Jailed in the cubicle nation…

Niko — Sun, 23 Aug 2009 08:49:21 +0000

Sometimes I feel my floor is a prison where I am kept and serving my imprisonment. The moment I come to my office, I enter the JAIL. It’s a complete jail U can’t leave before their wish. I hope its clear wat do I mean by “THEIR”. They call themselves the Stakeholders. I guess nothing is on stake except their ***.
Just born to let others not live their life as they want to. U have to stay late, come on weekdays(Saturday is a must) n they might give u an off(Sunday), but b prepared to come on Sunday as well when the project is in a crucial stage.
I just completely hate someone just above me. I wish I got a promotion and that person hadn’t n then I would have told him , how to work.
I just feel so jailed , so ridiculous about this type of management where people are treated as resources; non living resources or may be living but having no social life of their own.
Just hope I’ll find a way to get out of this jail or at least get a transfer to another jail which is in any sense better than this one. Coz this one being the worst of the lot.
Hope I get free soon.

I can’t work like dat

Niko — Sun, 26 Jul 2009 18:39:51 +0000

Well,
Its Friday today and its a holiday .I am not going to office coz my work is done and there’s some piece of work that I don wana do. As usual onely one person is responsible for dat. Dear “Loegoff”; who else has more guts to do it. U know one thing, if I take a list of people after talking to whom, my mind completely blows up, she’s on top of dat. It’s not dat ways, its because she’s dam irritating. She’ll just bring you to her level and then will beat u up in stupid crap.

Daddy’s got the looks….

Niko — Mon, 20 Jul 2009 17:42:45 +0000

The moment daddy finishes some of his boring and long speeches about how to work and how to improve efficiency of working, his face should be observed. He’s so proud and he doesn’t even realizes how stupid he sounds and no body gives a shit to watever he says but still he keeps on doing the stuff again and again.

When u come late to office, he’ll first give u a tight glance, then will look at the clock and then will look @ u again as if he wants to convey the message..”Y ru so late..” but the moment i see those kirky looks, I just burst into laughter, I can barely control it. But the point is Y don’t he understands all this. In spite of all these things, he’s still the same “CERTIFIED ASSHOLE”.
There’s one more thing that is noticable about daddy. As and when some1 comes to my seat and we do chit chat, daddy keeps rolling his eyes while sitting on his seat and giving the weirdest of looks to whoever comes to my seat.
Just tired of his idiotic behaviour. Hope he’ll understand that he’s not a child any more and it’s very important to react like mature people(professionals)

How things are going??

Niko — Sun, 19 Jul 2009 17:33:37 +0000

Well this is the most common way of asking you, “May I know wat the hell do u day all day long???”. This kind of language is so commonly used these days specially by managers who think dat dey are living deities of Decency and Sarcasm. Just letting u feel down and down again without even using harsh ways but playing with words sarcastically.
Who knows better dan me about this. I face this crap daily. I have a boss, who thinks he’s the best JACK ASS our company has ever got. Just tries to be so managed, decent and talking to people in a way dat people will find him actually polite until and unless they see this kind of a stuff repeatedly. Now if someone asks you..”Hey XYZ, how is it going..where are we.”; it sounds f9. Rite.
But an important thing to note here is dat the no of time the same thing is asked and after how much time duration and along with increasing time duration , the tone changing to a harsh tone just letting u feel worse than ever before.
This quality is found in every Boss who’s a certified ASSHOLE. I am sorry to use dat word but couldn;t stop my emotions to flow through the keyboard. Infact, dats Y I m here, to just write wat I feel and let every1 know how do I feel.

Silence of the lambs

Niko — Sun, 19 Jul 2009 16:13:30 +0000

This week was quite easy. Not much of the hectic stuff to do. ever since I came back, the hectic season seems to be all gone. I dunno wat’s really going on. Where’s the team’s spirit has gone. The family is no longer a happy family. People from the family are fighting. New members are being adopted into the family.
Crap. The family shit is the only usual thing dat’s happening. Other dan dat, nothing is going the way it used to be. I LOVE it. I really love it, when people don’t come up to me telling me about the tremendous pressure they are going through because of the skinny deadlines and making me realize dat “It’s because of u BOSS..”; I love it because I get my own time. Nobody comes up to me telling me dat we have to complete this by today or tomorrow. The environment is super chilled out. Everything was going smooth when the team faced a severe problem but instead of dat, nobody yelled @ me coz I was d one who had to fix dat. NO body said a word. I took my time, almost a day n even at the end of it, all dey said was ..”Thank God..It started working again..Thnx..”. I was so shocked.
But there’s something fishy, there’s something dat I dunno about. Either the project deadline is increased or something like dat otherwise it would have been disastrous for d team coz every1 is taking everything so lightly.
May be this is just the silence of the lambs, hinting of some bigger problem dat could creep in netime and take away the calm n cool of our happy lifes..
Just wishing dat whatever I am thinking, is proved wrong shortly n if not, den God Plz gimme the strength to bear the consequences.

Wat’s the status

Niko — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 19:26:37 +0000

Ever since I have joined office, I have felt something that I never felt before. People meet u, say Hi’s Hellos but the main question they ask is wat’s the status? So basically as soon as this question drops, it feels like prologue was jus so customary , no body was not even interested. Just a check list question.

This is the most annoying quetsions of all times. If I have to create a list , this will be on top.

The problem is that people keep bugging u by asking the same question again and again and it goes on in an infinite loop and every time its asked, it raises the annoyance level You feel more frustrated.

But these people are always next to you. They’ll attack u from everywhere, ping u, mail u , call u , n even come to ur seat. I feel so helpless sometimes, coz every few mins , somebody or the other is over my shoulders asking the same question.It feels like m in “STATUS LAND”. Here the currency is status, national symbol and every fkin thing is status. People deal in statuses and just exchange status only. No talks , Just status Status Status and Fuckin Status…….

In every form u’ll get these people, who derive great sense of joy in asking this. They don’ t even realize for a second that they sound so pathetically stupid while asking the same thing repeatdly.

But yes, that’s when I remember this quote and comfort myself:

“Never argue with a fool. First he’ll bring you down to his level and then will beat u in experience!”

They are all fools. Just idiots, toe licking assholes who just come in to ask u the status every now and then.

Back to Business

Niko — Sun, 05 Jul 2009 17:23:35 +0000

I dunno why good times end so early,you don’t even get the time to bid them bbye. I had a 10 days off. It was a gr8 time and I had real fun. No office, no strange faces, no one to c what ur doing, no one spying on you. Wat else you can ask for. And most importantly u can do watever u like, nobody is bugging u up for status and you don’t have to help out someone when its 4 am in the morning.

I’ll miss this time for sure. I can’t rem when I had taken such a long break.

But I’ll have to join office tomorrow again. All dese days, people disturbed me less than expected.

I was expecting that something huge will be pending, people will ask me what things I have left for others to cover up, what is pending, how are we going to meet our deadlines? But nothing. I was so shocked. For about a week, my module has been delayed and nobody asks u dat. That’s quite fishy. So something is cooking dat’s for sure.
But I’ll get to know about it only when I reach office tomorrow morning.
I am in a perfect mood to join office tomorrow morning. I guess I have had my share of fun and its time to hit the work again.
SO..wishing my self all the best for tomorrow coz I’ll have to answer many questions..